"Hurry is an inner condition that is fear-based."
{James Bryant Smith}
Why do I rush, and hurry, and schedule my life in 15 minute increments?
It's because I'm scared. I'm afraid of not being enough. I'm afraid of missing out. I'm afraid of falling behind.
A couple years ago, one of my mentors {Jason Malec} said, "Lisamarie, your busyness is not a badge of honor." I remember feeling my throat catch it was so convicting.
Jason loved me enough to speak truth into my life and he changed my perspective that day. It was another year before I actually changed anything about my life. Life change always results from heart change, so it was only after a devastating season that I reordered my priorities.
Who we love, what we're passionate about, and what we believe should determine how we organize our lives.
So why does my planner, my bank account, and my blog not always represent what (and who) I would say matters most?
Writing is both an outlet and a challenge. If I'm harnessing that energy into my job or elsewhere, writing is first to go...which is ironic because I would tell you that it's my dream to write. To be a writer you have to write, simple as that.
Chasing down what we want for our lives is terrifying. Fear shows itself in my life through busyness. Busyness is the enemy of creativity and a life lived out of love.
Living a life without margin for what and who we love is like living from paycheck to paycheck. It means we can't order our lives with maturity and foresight. Having no time for what's most important is about as "cool" as buying things we can't afford. They both reveal a fear of insignificance.
"Cool" is not scheduling every minute to prove to myself that I'm significant. Cool is being home watching Gossip Girl reruns on netflix when one of my girls drops by for a heart to heart.
I want to be a person with an open life, an open door, and an open heart. I'm convinced that's not possible without first being a person with an open calendar.
One of my favorite authors {Bob Goff} said, "Jesus Christ will never compete for your time or attention, He is always competing for your heart."
What's competing for your heart? Maybe it's a relationship, a calling, or a life change. I don't know what or who comes to mind for you, but I pray we find the strength for our lives to be a reflection of who and what we love.
Time is love,
Lisamarie
